Ever had a nice feeling around someone? When you talk to that person, it just comes naturally. Yet I was scared chicken shit to open my mouth and ask a simple question(ok! make that 2). What now brown cow? It's not tormenting to not know what will happen (maybe I'm not so into it). It is , however, tormenting to run through the different scenarios in mind (simulations, the beauty of the human brain!! Feels like Nicholas Cage in Next).

Let's take a logical illogical look with 5Ws 1H .

Who - Me, myself and I along with a secret mystery guest

What- What should I do? What is going to happen? What is the best/worst outcome?

Where- Where should I do it? where should I go?

When- When is the best time? When would be a bad time? When am I going to grow bigger balls?

Why- Why this person? Why not? Why now?

How- How is it going to be done? How so?

This was a sudden decision but not an unforeseen one. The idea has been running through my head for more than a year. Yet it's only now that I start to think about it seriously. Am I at that stage of my life to really consider this? To throw myself into a situation that who knows how it will turn out? I always tell myself that I need to ask, need to find, need to try. This is one area I truly am afraid to explore. Not that I have not but the last time didn't turn out so well. If I screw up, I'll fall back into the vicious cycle once more.

Advice anyone? Please do so via email.

January.....

1st month of 2010 is coming to an end




Some of the things I've done so far


1. Signed up for Sundown again

2. Reading The Greatest Show on Earth

3. Being a FT for a sec 3 class



I'm wondering why do we need Just For Laughs Gags Asia when we had Gotcha. Does the branding mean the pranks are any better?



Missed Ramunia 2010 and will miss 2011, 2012 as well......Depressed. Well the consolation is perhaps I'm getting closer to getting a Jackson. I want an Allstar!! I want a keyhole kevlar-reinforced neoprene spray cover!!



3 weeks into 2010 and I'm already finishing at 1730 on a daily basis....Quality sleep is now a luxury. Always dreaming, always aware of things around me when I'm asleep. Feels like I'm just shutting my eyes.

Either the youths are worse or I have become more sensitive about certain issues.

What can be asserted without proof can be dismissed without proof- Christopher Hitchens

EOY!! Hurray??

This blog seems to be becoming a monthly blog. Better than nothing....



Been reading The God Delusion. Not going to comment much on the content. Read it yourself to find out.

The Greatest Show on Earth awaits.



Going through a somewhat depressing phase. It's becoming consistent. Is it because I have got too much time on my hands?

Got a new Salomon jacket. Was glad that I was not fatter. It was the last second piece and there were no other sizes available! It was a nice fit.

Spent Christmas Eve at Kallang Leisure Park. Dinner, movie then ice-skating with Bear, SMY Yurong Jr, Keet, Zhihao, San², Jeff, Teresa and Charles!! Went to that same Japanese restaurant. Once again, we got cake!! SMY was in the same attire!! Watched Sherlock Holmes after dinner. If you ignored what you read in books, it would have been a better movie. Won't spoil it for people who would be reading this. Ice-skating!!! Went back ice-skating exactly one year after my 1st attempt. Not too bad a feeling. Going to learn how to blade so my next attempt would be a better experience. Oh yes!! No abrasion this year!! Supper was at a dim-sum shop at Geylang.

Spent Christmas at Wilson's. Had tonnes of food!!! Ok, not really tonnes but it was food galore. Pizzas, turkey, pork knuckle, ham, cakes! Gluttony!! It was Teresa's birthday and since she was not around, we got a stand-in for her birthday celebration!!

Going back to work on Monday.


With or without religion, you would have good people doing good things and evil people doing evil things. But for good people to do evil things, that takes religion.- Steven Weinberg

Updates

It is now the month of November. I have survived 19 weeks of work.

This blog has been neglected. Sorry blog!!

1. Been playing tchoukball for as long as I have worked.
2. Completed my NCAP 1 course last night. Awaiting results in six weeks time. Imagine having a jittery pre-christmas. NCAP 2 anyone?
3. Signed up for CPR+AED course. Byebye $$. I hope I never have to put to use what I am about to learn.
4. Been neglecting playboating. Must plan time on weekdays during the school holidays to play. Otherwise I will be disintegrated rather then rusty.
5. Currently watching documentaries off YouTube
6. Been on a shopping spree on Amazon.com recently.


Reflection
It is in my opinion that opportunities are bountiful. It is the realisation of one that is hard to come by. In many ways, we have been given second chances to right our wrongs, to improve our shortcomings. Yet, there seems to be something stopping people from doing so. Perhaps it takes a sharp eye to see one. There are, also, a group of people who chose not to take that chance despite it being offered to them on a silver platter. People who fear the consequences and yet repeatedly commit the same mistake. Question, why?


You must learn from the mistakes of others. You can't possibly live long enough to make them all yourself- Sam Levenson (1911-1980)