Ever had a nice feeling around someone? When you talk to that person, it just comes naturally. Yet I was scared chicken shit to open my mouth and ask a simple question(ok! make that 2). What now brown cow? It's not tormenting to not know what will happen (maybe I'm not so into it). It is , however, tormenting to run through the different scenarios in mind (simulations, the beauty of the human brain!! Feels like Nicholas Cage in Next).

Let's take a logical illogical look with 5Ws 1H .

Who - Me, myself and I along with a secret mystery guest

What- What should I do? What is going to happen? What is the best/worst outcome?

Where- Where should I do it? where should I go?

When- When is the best time? When would be a bad time? When am I going to grow bigger balls?

Why- Why this person? Why not? Why now?

How- How is it going to be done? How so?

This was a sudden decision but not an unforeseen one. The idea has been running through my head for more than a year. Yet it's only now that I start to think about it seriously. Am I at that stage of my life to really consider this? To throw myself into a situation that who knows how it will turn out? I always tell myself that I need to ask, need to find, need to try. This is one area I truly am afraid to explore. Not that I have not but the last time didn't turn out so well. If I screw up, I'll fall back into the vicious cycle once more.

Advice anyone? Please do so via email.