Thursday, September 9, 2010

Coming to EOY!! Yay!!!

Just noticed that I only had two entries this year.

Must have been a busy year. Time passes so quickly. Hectic term three. With three days of examinations over during the september holidays, it's just three more days in three weeks time before it's all over. At least for my graduating class. Hope they do well and get the grade they want.

I think some people should be subjected to a strict regimen. I need one too but I'm not writing about myself today. How is it that someone takes flight from an approved institution and not realise the seriousness of it and does it again? There are also implications to the people around. Not everyone knows what awaits them. Two things come to my mind. Either that person has no idea of consequences or that person thinks he is the king of the world. Either one, makes me think he should be committed longer. If it's not bad enough, it feels like no one is doing anything to deter such actions from happening again.

Moving on, did a T.O.P. follow-up recently. It feels good to see improvement in behaviour for some of the kids. Hope the steam last.

Had a chat with a friend recently. I was told that I need to make that someone feel safe, feel respected and, yes, feel like the one and only. Sounds easy. Not so easy. Yes, I'm still scared chicken shit. Ok, maybe I worry too much. Still need to find an opportunity to have a conversation. Time to do something before I regret and the plan is to play by ear. Great plan ah?

Monday, July 5, 2010

Ever had a nice feeling around someone? When you talk to that person, it just comes naturally. Yet I was scared chicken shit to open my mouth and ask a simple question(ok! make that 2). What now brown cow? It's not tormenting to not know what will happen (maybe I'm not so into it). It is , however, tormenting to run through the different scenarios in mind (simulations, the beauty of the human brain!! Feels like Nicholas Cage in Next).

Let's take a logical illogical look with 5Ws 1H .

Who - Me, myself and I along with a secret mystery guest
What- What should I do? What is going to happen? What is the best/worst outcome?
Where- Where should I do it? where should I go?
When- When is the best time? When would be a bad time? When am I going to grow bigger balls?
Why- Why this person? Why not? Why now?
How- How is it going to be done? How so?

This was a sudden decision but not an unforeseen one. The idea has been running through my head for more than a year. Yet it's only now that I start to think about it seriously. Am I at that stage of my life to really consider this? To throw myself into a situation that who knows how it will turn out? I always tell myself that I need to ask, need to find, need to try. This is one area I truly am afraid to explore. Not that I have not but the last time didn't turn out so well. If I screw up, I'll fall back into the vicious cycle once more.

Advice anyone? Please do so via email.

Saturday, January 23, 2010

January.....

1st month of 2010 is coming to an end




Some of the things I've done so far


1. Signed up for Sundown again

2. Reading The Greatest Show on Earth

3. Being a FT for a sec 3 class



I'm wondering why do we need Just For Laughs Gags Asia when we had Gotcha. Does the branding mean the pranks are any better?



Missed Ramunia 2010 and will miss 2011, 2012 as well......Depressed. Well the consolation is perhaps I'm getting closer to getting a Jackson. I want an Allstar!! I want a keyhole kevlar-reinforced neoprene spray cover!!



3 weeks into 2010 and I'm already finishing at 1730 on a daily basis....Quality sleep is now a luxury. Always dreaming, always aware of things around me when I'm asleep. Feels like I'm just shutting my eyes.

Either the youths are worse or I have become more sensitive about certain issues.



What can be asserted without proof can be dismissed without proof- Christopher Hitchens